
I have never felt so many mixed feelings in my life; I am sure of that. I left everything I knew to come to a place I had never heard of, and to partake in a sacred work. I came with faith, not knowing what it was like to be a missionary, or to speak a foreign language; but all in all it all turned out alright. I ask you now, why? The Lord was on my side, He was on my right hand and on my left, and His angles were continuously round about me bearing me up. I turned to him for strength, answers, and to feel his love. When I was in my deepest despair. He held me in his arms, and gave me the rest I most surely needed. He answered my prayers, and let me know that he was there, he was conscious of my situation. He never turned his back; he blessed me according to my obedience just like he said he would. I have come to know my savior, have a relationship with him, feel that he truly is my brother, and that his selfless sacrifice was most truly infinite. He never gave up on me, and for that I was able to bring many of my fellow brothers and sisters unto him, thus gaining the unbounded knowledge of his sacrifice and the necessity of his innocent shed blood. The Savior loves us, and his arms are open to hold us, and to carry us in times of need. Like I mentioned, I have seen literally countless lives change during my mission. I received a call from a cute family I baptized in Boa Vista this week. Threw their tears and goodbyes, they thanked me for the indescribable change I made in their lives. They have callings in the church, their children have been baptized, and they plan on going to the temple in January. This family is an example of what I call a real change. They have felt the spirit, and have been guided and directed. They will be blessed eternally as they continue making righteous choices. So I say, yes that family changed, and many others, but I would like to tell you that this last week I have realized the real change that has happened within me. When we are in the service of our fellow brethren, we receive more light, and it shines in our eyes. The gospel transforms us, and our desires, priorities, and goals change. There is a great alteration. I find the true joy the gospel brings into our lives as we live the commandments, and choose to be obedient. I have felt the warm loving arms of the savior, I have received answers to my prayers, I have seen miracles, I have felt the spirit and know that it is real, and I have seen the truths of the gospel testify unto those who have had yet the opportunity to hear its sweet message. I have had a change of heart, and a desire to do good continually. I have been able to look deep within myself, and see the defects which I have, and strived to change them. I know that happiness comes in righteousness. I have felt the great desire to attend the temple, and have been torn up not having this opportunity. The temple is the house of God, he abides there, it is a piece of heaven on earth. Everything in the gospel leads us to the temple, ever since the Old Testament. I have touched upon the eternal truths held within sacred scriptures, and have prayed to know their truth. I have felt the assurance of the Holy Ghost that there is a living prophet today, and that he is called of God. I am thankful that I have kept such great journals because I could go on for forever. Summing it all together, I have learned that living that gospel is all that matters!!I am just a man, I am a sinner, and an imperfect being, but I know that perfection is possible. I am weak, but the knowledge which I have gained makes me strong. I am hated by many, but it is because I embrace the name of our savior upon my shoulders. I love being hated for preaching his gospel. I have much to improve, and to learn. I have made so many goals for my return home, and for my life. If we don’t make goals we will start our lives, and finish, realizing that we are in the same place. I have a testimony of that. Goals are imperative. I love my Savior, I love you all. I am speechless knowing that I will see all of you. I am nervous, thinking that somehow I will disappoint you, but I know I have fought the good fight, and I can say I gave it all I had. I tried with all my heart, might, mind, and strength, but as the scriptures say, I am still an unprofitable servant. After all we can do, it will never be enough, but I like trying. We need to all be missionaries, we need to all make goals to share the gospel, we need to do it now. Put the goals up on the refrigerator, make them during FHE; somehow someway, just do it. I promise you all you will be blessed. We are under covenant to do it; there are no excuses, only condemnation if we don’t give it our all. I know that sharing the gospel is just a matter of praying for the strength, and then acting based upon the whispers of the spirit. Do it.I love you guys, I mean it. I will be there before you know it. Your all examples to me, and I am thankful for each one of you. I would not be here if it were not for your love, and kind words. Thank you, thank you, thank you. There is no more I could say. Have an awesome week. Tchau!Elder Gatten